![]() to the person who cared, who could have friends, who cared about learning. i find myself thinking about the past, wondering if ill ever return to the person i was. ![]() i begin to doubt every facet of who "i" am, resulting in a self-fulfilling prophecy that saps my creative energies while challenging the purpose of human development and the reward systems associated with it. concepts of uniqueness, personality, and goal-motivated pursuits lose their meaning - almost become surreal - and i am completely unmoved by any real-world concern, responsibility, or value. ![]() it may be very related to my depression, but it's almost as if nothing matters to me anymore. This has been such a scary, mind-binding phenomenon with me lately, and seeing you put it into words has made me feel less insane. Not sure if that's an important correlation, but it's something to consider.Ĭreated an account just so i could say "i feel you" Incidentally, naltrexone is being considered for the treatment of depersonalization disorder. Perhaps part of the reason I drink in the first place is because the intoxication makes life and other people feel more real. I'm afraid that if I continue to drink, I may render the disorder permanent. The duration of the depersonalization is proportionate to the length and severity of the drinking spell, but it has gotten frightening enough that I've felt myself lose touch with reality, and it's the most terrifying thing that's ever happened to me. I begin to withdraw from myself, and I lose sight of what I stand for, who I am, and what I'm doing with my life. The world becomes dreamy and surreal, and the resulting detachment is frightening. ![]() Does anyone else feel that they temporarily depersonalize when they go on a binge or bender? By that I mean that the world seems less real during the hangover or withdrawal, and people and life become more difficult to relate to. ![]()
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
AuthorWrite something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview. ArchivesCategories |